making sense of it when we win and when we lose
splitting belief in oneself into six layers
2025-11-02 22:21 // updated 2026-03-01 13:10
Lining up these layers to make a "matrix of gaming sentiments" (take this with a grain of salt):
| layer | how it felt when: | if we won, it's: | if we lost, it's: |
|---|---|---|---|
| 6 | we knew we would win | "business as always" | "because someone rigged the game" |
| 5 | we had great odds | "a given" | "politics and bullshit" |
| 4 | we had a chance of winning | "our hard work" | "a tough loss" |
| 3 | we were still in it | "luck on our side" | "us not them" |
| 2 | we had a slim chance of winning | "like winning the jackpot" | "a given" |
| 1 | we had no chance of winning | "God's will" | "business as always" |